Trust

So yesterday I am on my lunch break walking around the building outside. This is what I do when I need to just get away from the job place for a bit to collect my thoughts and just be "Jess" for a bit. The weather has been so nice lately too it has made all the difference.
Anyhow, on my walk I cant help but take notice of the hundreds of butterflies flitting around me...at first I thought I was special and that it was some awesome sign from God or something. Seconds passed and I remembered that this is migration time for monarch butterflies.
Ahh, I saw a special on PBS all about it, they fly from way up North to a place in Mexico.Some people in Mexico believe that the Butterflies are their ancestors returning and they prepare big feasts and decorate their villages to Welcome them.
So I am walking around and loving all the little butterflies, I love butterflies. I remember being a little girl and having one land on my hand. It was pretty, blue and brown. It just sat on my right hand and relaxed a minute, and I always remember how cool I felt that the butterfly felt cozy enough to hang out on my hand.
So these butterflies are all around, I counted easily more than like 70, I am positive that I saw at least a couple hundred on my walk though., It was one of the most amazing things in Nature that I have seen a long time.
So, my thought was this....
These butterflies make this migration trip right after their wings dry after emerging from their cocoons. They have never traveled before, yet something inside of them propels them South. They follow the same path that millions of other butterflies have taken before them, only they don't know that. Their only goal is to fly South to Mexico.
This trips me out. I watched a special all about it and now I am seeing it in real life. It was neat. I thought of each butterfly and how much further they have to go, also how far they have already come. It really is mind boggling. They only stop to eat and find shelter from rain, other than that they fly.
After my super awesome thought I realized that God had put the instinct in them to go. Before they were "born" God had already placed in them a need to fly South, a need to migrate. Then I thought about the scripture in Matthew, I believe, where it speaks about how God provides for even the birds, of course he will provide for us.
It is true too. God created everything, I know he did. Its in the Bible and you cannot dispute it as far I am concerned.
God made every creature and instilled in them their own survival skills, migration patterns, and the contribution they make to the circle of life. God did the same for us, the human race. We have already had a desire for something greater, a need to go somewhere, do something, free will, survival skills and all sorts of intricate detail, specific to every individual on this planet. It really is mind blowing when you think about all God has done. Tiny insects traveling thousands of miles with instinct as their compass, how else could you explain that without God?

In the short version: I realize that God had already placed in me a will to do something, to be something, to go. I don't know where or what exactly yet but I know that I want to serve the Lord. I want to keep striving and climbing to the next level in my relationship with Him. I don't need to know where I am headed at this point because God already knows and He has already been there before me. the path has been prepared, all I have to do now is follow instinct and go. To use my spiritual instincts as my compass so to speak.
I will know where I am going as soon as I arrive.

This has been another super awesome deep though brought to you by Jess. My wings aren't quite dry and I am learning patience...I am dying to fly though!