To always know God.

SO every morning Jaden and I sing together to KLOVE. Then we say prayers ni the parking lot before she gets out of her car seat. Our morning routine.
Jaden always tells me to "Turn it up mom" and I do. Jaden sings along to all songs no matter if she knows them or not. She has her serious face on and her serious tone every time I check on her in my review. I love it.
So, this morning she was praising Jesus free style and it just blessed my heart.I always doubt my parenting skills at some point in the week...should I have done this or that am I a good mom, am I scaring her for life? And to hear her little voice sing her thanks to Jesus just makes me realize that in spite of any of my shortcomings as a parent;the one right thing I can be sure of is that I am providing a chance for her to have a relationship with the Lord. She knows who God is and how we are blessed. She knows she wants to be a blessing to others and that God made her special and that Jesus is in her heart. What a good foundation.

I think of all the kids out there in this world who don't get to grow up knowing the Lord. Gosh, growing up like that must be like taking a long trip to a new place but having no map. How do you measure success and failure.Right and wrong? Love and Hate? Truth and Deception? YO See what mean.

I was raised always knowing that Jesus was Gods son and he lived in Heaven. I knew God loved me and would forgive my sins. We didn't always go to church and my home life was far from perfect. But in my darkest most tormented and lost moments in my life I always heard a voice in the back of my soul telling me I could be forgiven. I always knew God loved me and that I could be more with him in my life. (made it hard to stay high)But never the less, I knew God was real. And when I was ready to clean my life up I knew where to go.
What about the tons of people who want to clean up their lives but just don't know where to go? They never knew God so how do they find him?

I sit here at work surrounded by cubicles full of people.I know that not a single one of the people in this office with me, working with me right now;they don't know God.
For the first time since I have worked here I am glad to be a doormat here. Glad to be pestered. Glad to be a laughing stock. Glad to be a witness.
They don't know God. They may very well get in a car wreck, get sick or take their lives and die never knowing Gods grace and forgiveness.
What do you do when you are overwhelmed with love and compassion for people that hate you? How do you witness to them without driving them away? I wish I could stand up right now and say some life changing thing that would melt every ones hearts and make them realize their need for God. I wish I could.
I guess I am just to be a witness. By my actions here. By the relationships I have here. To be available to answer any questions or offer any advice.

I just think, did any of them grow up knowing Jesus? Or are they traveling through this life with no direction, no map?

I just urge everybody to take notice of the people you are around. The people you see at the store or wherever. They need prayer, they need Jesus. They need to the chance to be saved. the least we can do is pray and give them a chance right?

I know its all a bit much, but I have never felt this way before. It just breaks my heart. I don't know what I should say or do here. How do I witness? Any thoughts?